♥mrJay ツ

2009-07-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

its been so long since i've login in here. at times when i do passed by my own blog, i feel like updating it but when i come to think of what to write, i have nothing .. Is my life really that dull ? people say, life is like a storybook. it has different chapters, story, characters and full of excitements to be reveal . but i guess mine is just a book with blank pages ..

2009-06-16T19:43:00.001+08:00

- the truth hurts specially when you find it all by yourself.

2009-06-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

was damn hungry & i was about to get myself something to eat but right now i lost my appetite. i never knew that finding something true can hurt this much. when all i did was think and miss about you. i'm really trying hard to get back where we left from but i guess it wont never happen again. i knew this point will come but u said, it wont and i had faith in you !! but whats all this ?? i'm struggling over here where you found your happiness. if thats the case, i guess, i have to let it be cus i want to see u being happy in whose ever arm's it is ..
i'll end it here, cus i wanna have some time alone .. all i can say right now is, be happy in whose ever arms it is and please do takecare ..
Goodbye.

2009-06-09T22:29:00.002+08:00

really been busy and tired due to school. its really been awhile since i had back this feeling which is wanting to go to school . lols. myabe its due to the course i took which has more free time then study time.
Ha. kays, write more on the post i think =/

2009-06-06T19:28:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since i last updated.
well, nothing much has happen beside from school. yup, u got that right, i'm back in school for some hardware courses. lols speaking of school, its dam tiring !!! long hours man, 9am-6pm, wtf !! plus its monday to saturday !! so that means, i only have sunday as my break. all i do for now is, sleep eat bath school and it goes on as a cycle .. hope i can hold on to this. lols

its been 10000 years since i've copied some notes.

2009-06-03T03:25:00.002+08:00

guess i gotta blog more and update more but bo mood and anything to write about. LOL
need to do some changes with the songs too !! but i guess i'll do everything next time bah ><''
off for now !!

2009-05-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

no mood for everything, due to my fever and sore throat .. i've been lying on my bed and sofa for almost afew days doing nothing but sleeping or just simply plan thinking. i guess i got ill from missing and loving you too much . remember that dairy you wrote for me ?? its been sealed and protected in a box. i always do read it but after afew mins of mixed emotions, i keep missing you more. but what can i do ?? i'm such a useless person and i'm very sorry .. my headache is killing me !! i guess, i gona rest awhile now.

i swear,

no matter how hard i try not to miss you,

no matter how hard i try to forget you,

my efforts are so fruitless to the extent that i get angered by it.

2009-05-25T19:41:00.004+08:00

- I must have gone crazy over this hard love that i keep dwelling up about our past every time.

2009-05-20T05:23:00.002+08:00

- I hope the world would just end in 2012 !!

lols =/
i dunnoe why early in the morning i'm cursing the world for no reasons .
anyways, happy belated birthday jomhar (:

2009-05-16T23:06:00.002+08:00

Ha. back to bloggin after afew days (:
just got home afew mins ago. went out in the afternoon to catch the movie Angels and Demons. its a worth watching movie cus the story line is good. well, its still up to you guys to rate it !! anyways, been not blogging this few days cus i'm just rotting at home doing nothing besides online movies, maple & etc .. u know the rest !! k, write till next time yah. gona find something to eat before hitting the long hours of sitting infront of the com again .

2009-05-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

how come when i wanna start anew fresh, i dun always get the support nor the feeling that i would do great in it ?? is it really hard to start anew fresh when ur already down in the drain ?? seriously, i've got so much things that i wanna do or wanna be someone !! do u get wad i mean ?? but how come its so hard ?? am i already that hopeless ?? i've got alot of questions on my mind .. how i wish i could find answers to them ..

- lifeless day i had today.

2009-04-30T12:21:00.002+08:00

FEELING SO SHAG URGH !!

MAYBE DUE TO THE COLD WEATHER ..
seriously, i still wanna continue my sleep but i cant cus

if i do, i'll wake up during late afternoon or maybe night and i'll have

my sickening insomnia again .

-there is so many things that i want you to know and i wont give up till its over.

2009-04-30T00:48:00.004+08:00

went to enquire about hair dressing course at David's Salon Academy during the afternoon. i thought i was gona get caught in the rain cus when i left the house, it was already very cloudy !! but i did not, so dam heng la :D
i was really very fascinated about the whole thing & i'm kinda interested in it too but the price for the course is still within my parents decision ): gona try to talk to them tml & i hope things would work out.

but once it did, i'll work my ass out like i've nvr did before.
i really wanna start anew fresh in my life. i've enough of wasting my life for more den 2 hrs !! alrights, i'm gona hit the sack soon.
nites ppl <3

*Pics for the day.

2009-04-29T11:52:00.002+08:00

been rotting at home this few days.
thats why i got nothing to blog lately. maybe i'll go out later to enquire about hair dressing course ??

in the mean while, i might hit the sack again or might login into maple ?
who knows what i'm gona do next right? lols.

bbyes.

2009-04-22T22:25:00.001+08:00

urgh _!_
knn pcb fck .. stress nia !!
bo mood to blog le .. ps, sorry guys .

i'll write something else next time.

2009-04-22T00:35:00.002+08:00

i might be wrong.
and
it might not be true. but as for now, i really dunnoe wad to do nor think !
i guess, i'll just hit the sack now to get my mind some rest.

2009-04-21T19:19:00.003+08:00

i thought my day would be plain, simple & boring but i guess i'm totally wrong !! i nvr knew that u would change those features & status. so i guess, i have to change mine too. now i understand that time will flow and everyone will change. but i'm really not ready for it .. i dont even know what i'm feeling right now but its killing me & it totally sucks !! urgh , fuck this _!_
it may seem that u made some small changes but to me its a big thing .. seriously, i'm trying to hold on here and getting a new fresh in life but after that .. i really dunnoe myself anymore ..

urgh _!_
!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&*()_+

2009-04-21T18:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to :

Jolene mei(: & Kimberly !!

who would knew that both of you girls have the same birthday ! Ha :D
anyways, u girls are finally 17years old le !! so better grow up & stop being a kid !! ahhas, kidding.
hope u girls had a wonderful day with yr friends(:

do takecare & misses ..

2009-04-19T14:25:00.002+08:00

my mind is killing me !! i really dunnoe wad to do anymore .. i've got so many things that i wanna do but i just cant yet .. urgh fuck _!_

will anyone just tell me what to do ?? i'm really lost.

2009-04-18T10:45:00.002+08:00

i'm so fckin tired _!_
but my eyes just wont shut .. dam !!
anyways, i've just finish playin maple the whole night through while watchin some dvds.
i'm gona grab a bite before hitting the sack(:

goodnight.
i hope yr doing well !!

2009-04-18T05:24:00.002+08:00

You Found Me by The Fray

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad

Where the West was all but won

All alone, smoking his last cigarette

I said, "Where've you been?" He said, "Ask anything."

Where were you, when everything was falling apart.

All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang

And all I needed was a call that never came

To the corner of 1st and Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

But in the end everyone ends up alone

Losing her, the only one who's ever known

Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be

No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

The early morning, the city breaks

And I've been calling for years and years and years

And you never left me no messages

You never sent me no letters

You got some kind of nerve taking all I want

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, Where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

Why'd you have to wait, to find me, to find me?

2009-04-15T21:06:00.001+08:00

urgh fuck _!_
i still cant login maple since morning till now !!!
i'm still waiting ... -.-

2009-04-15T18:11:00.002+08:00

Ha:D
i'm done with everything !! but i didn't manage to go out and shop for my household needs though): guess i'll be doing that another day or maybe in the weekends ? I'm so bored right now with nothing to do !!

i wanna play my maple but i cant & i dunnoe why !! urgh _!_
guess, i'll have to wait then):

2009-04-15T10:45:00.002+08:00

shit i'm up early today and i dunnoe why -.-''
since i've got nothing to do lately, guess i'll be doing some house cleaning(:

things to do :
-laundry
-sweep the floor & mop it after that
-wipe the tables, computer desk, cabinets & etc etc etc ..
-clean the bathroom
-get myself some household things like food, snacks and u know the rest(:

alright,
gona have my breakfast before i start doing my list to do today !!

2009-04-11T23:12:00.003+08:00

got home around 8plus. went out with cousins & aunt to catch a movie(:
well, the local horror movie here was totally different plus it didn't scared the shit out of me !! HA. anyways, after the show, dey went for a dinner while i went window shopping !! cus i was not hungry.

after mins of walking & checking out all the clothes, i could not resists myself buying a polo-shirt for myself(: ahhas. guess, i'm just a shoppoholic freak !! xp
nights, i'm going off to maple for awhile before i hit the sack(:
stillmissingyou!

2009-04-10T07:13:00.002+08:00

been playing maple since ytd afternoon to night & now its morning !! lols.
i really should get my life back but its easier to say den to be done.
anyways, i hope u enjoyed yr birthday celebration with yr sisters(:

i'm going off now.
nights !

2009-04-08T05:24:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday to my precious Ellen(:
&
Happy 8th Birthday to my cousin Jillian !!

I hope u'll have an enjoyable day today.

thought its impossible for me to accompany you at this very special day of yours but i just wanna let u know that i'm missing u so much & the co. guys, u do takecare & good with life yah(: ohh yah, bro(thunder) cheer up alright ? there is always a way to fix things so u just have to find it okay !!

as for my cousin ..

well, yr basically sleeping now so .. have a sweet dream & i'll see u later yah !

hope u'll enjoy yr birthday too !!

2009-04-07T18:41:00.003+08:00

a note for you bro - (Thunder)

- things do happen for a reason & reasons are made to be understand.

2009-04-05T17:34:00.002+08:00

just got back home from my friends place which we stayed for a night.
well, its kinda a good-bye party for us cus we will be leaving each other soon.

NEW PLACES, NEW PEOPLE, NEW SCHOOL AND NEW LIFE !!

sorry i forgot to take pictures during dat night =x but anyways, its was totally a night to remember(: i'll sure miss u guys !!

2009-03-30T16:40:00.002+08:00

currently been staying at home this past few days! nothing seems to interests to go out recently cus i feel like everything is the same out side. lols -.-
so if yr gona ask me, what i've been doing lately .. well, theres nothing new besides eating, sleeping, tv and bath (: ohh yah, been playing back maple wor =x
so if u dont see me online, u could find me on maple (:
talk to me in game if ur playing too !! Ha.

bbye ppl,
off to play again i guess xD

2009-03-26T19:58:00.002+08:00

wanted to enquire about the PEP Test so that i could enter college but failed to do so cus i woke up late & my teacher could not accompany me anymore due to some meetings she had back in school.

so i went to the mall to have my lunch at Burger King & i bought myself a new wind proof lighter(: hehes..
after that, went through the shows that are airing on cinemas & this movie caught my attention. so i decided to watch it. well, i find it really nice & abit touching right through the end. LOL ><

had a light snack with cousins onec i got home. & now, i'm off to have my shower !!

Ha(:
bye peeps !! love yah

2009-03-24T03:37:00.003+08:00

i'm stilling having my insomnia so it pretty much sucks right !!
ohh well .. been staying or should i say rotting ? (anyways back to where i was saying) been at home this past few days & even on my weekends .

well u can see that my life is going no where right now !!
its killing me _!_

seriously, i wanna blog so much but when i do .. i got nothing cus i've been at home doing nothing besides rotting !! gosh, this just sucks hard !! i wanna get my life back on track !! right now, i'm off to find myself some sleeping pills to help me with my sleep(:

hoping that tml would be alittle different but i know it wont =x
so fuck it yah.

2009-03-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

friday afternoon, teacher called me up to go school for
reflection night which lasted all through out the night !!
well, it was simply boring but i just its worth going for cus its my last
time to bond with my classmates & friends before graduate.

speaking about that, i'm so regretting right now for not going to school
for 76days !! omg _!_
ohh well, i just have to learn from my lessons yah ?
how i wish i could just turn back time !
if i really could, there would be alot of things i would wanna rewrite about my life !!

2009-03-19T13:18:00.003+08:00

this post should have been ytd but i was too tired to use the com =x
but anyways, i just wanna great my sis a ..

Happy Belated 16th Birthday (:

2009-03-18T02:35:00.002+08:00

urgh shit !!
its so late right now or should i say, its early morning ? lols.
but its been two days now dat i'm sleep late & waking up early !!
i dont know why !!
my body is so dam tired but my mind wont stop thinking about every fucking little
shit of this life _!_
DAMN !

dont tell me, that i'm having back my insomnia cus i dont it want !!!

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP BACK xD

alright, i'll try to get some sleep now(:
nights ppl !

2009-03-16T12:31:00.014+08:00

NO MORE SCHOOL FOR ME BUT FUCK HELL I'M NOT GONA GRADUATE _!_
WTF !!

regret for not going to school for more then 5months or i guess its 6 ?!?
gona ask my teachers about the PEP Test should that i'm still able to go to collage !! urgh !!
screw my fucking life !!!

LIFE IS A BITCH !!!

anyways, two of my friends spend the whole weekend with me at home & outings !!
too much to list but i'll just let the pictures tell the story !!
btw, we took two mugs home from Starbucks xP

2009-03-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

as planned, i didn't go to school today(:
lols.
watched tons of DVDs at home till my friends came over to my place to chill
after school. we made dinner for ourselves & hang around as usual ..

nth much really happen today
but its not dat boring nor great .. its just okay o.0
friends told me that, they are coming over tml & gona have a sleep over ..
ohh well, i'll just leave it to them if they wanna come over cus i'm
fine with anything (: ha.

off for my shower !!
loveyou peeps(:

2009-03-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

OMG !!
i'm back home again _!_
i've just wasted my fucking time in school for nothing !!
all i did was slack & rot the whole day with friends ..

THERE WAS COMPLETELY NOTHING TO DO AS IN NOTHING AT ALL _!_

no lessons & not even a teacher came into the room ..
i guess, i'm not going to school tml cus thats whats gona happen tml !!

screw this life man !!

2009-03-12T10:33:00.002+08:00

friend drop by my hse to wake me up for school around 7.46am
but i'm lazy to get my ass out of bed(:
so we decided to hang around my house till now and its like
10.38am !!

gona have my bath soon & our lunch together & head on to school during
lunch time or after i guess xD
I'M SO FREAKING BORED WITH SCHOOL ALREADY !!
i wonder, when i'll get out of high school life _!_

ohh well,
i guess i'll take my bath now(:
see u guys next time yah !!

i'm still waiting ..

2009-03-09T19:57:00.004+08:00

decided to blog again after a few days ><

i've not been blogging lately cus nth much is happening with my life

beside rotting it away !!

okay.
during the weekends, went out with friends to hang out.

billiards, lunch, slack, smoke, talk about life like any other ppl would do !
friends decided to have a sleep over at my place cus it was kinda late

when we decided to go home.

*some pictures that i took last week.

2009-03-04T23:05:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Ryan(:

misses..

2009-03-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

just got home from church.
didn't blog for a few days cus nothing much really happen
beside from hanging out with my friends.
tml is monday again !! _!_

SHAG SHAG SHAG SHAG SHAG SHAG SHAG !!!

i've still got afew more projects to do to catch up with my clearance.
i dunnoe why, but i just cant get over you !
why life is always unfair _!_
you know what, earth is the worst place to live in !!

guess i'll lock myself in the room later to do some ironing.
Ha.

alright, shall end it here.
till next time.

ps. i'm still not over you.

2009-02-24T14:33:00.002+08:00

didn't blog for a few days cus i went for a week end vacation
with my friends. 3days & 2nights at our teachers house was kinda fun.

problems & worries were forgotten that day.
alot of activities happen !!
we all feel dat it was kinda short so we decided to go back there again
after finals.

all i can say is that, i'm glad i did not miss this out !!
pics are uploaded on my friendster profile.
check them out there if u want too.

2009-02-20T17:30:00.003+08:00

cuts are really do an escape from reality !!
i've nvr been this down ever again .
i do understand how u feel but at least, dont let our friendship
slip away just like that. but i know u wont right ??

anyways, i'll be still waiting.

2009-02-16T22:14:00.001+08:00

so many things to do but so little time !!

2009-02-14T15:26:00.003+08:00

prom last night was not really that great but i
still did enjoy myself (:

After prom, most of us went drinking at our friend's place.
though its kinda boring at first, but the fun came as we
stayed longer.

got home around 5 in the morning i think =x
cant clearly remember the time but who cares !

pics will be upload soon once i get it all from different
kinds of digi cam (:

Happy Valentines People !!

i'll be waiting for you.

2009-02-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (:

feeling tipsy already so i guess i'm gona continue this tml =x
Sorry guys =/

plus, i still have to wake up early in the morning for school !!
urgh !@#$%^&*()_+

2009-02-09T19:21:00.003+08:00

i never knew why emos cut them selfs up but i guess
i can finally understand why cus its like an escape from reality or
stress reliever.

notice - i aint emo !!

all night, i'm thinkin of you to sleep,
wondering how yr doing and stuffs. but when i'm with you
i'm always lost with words plus i cant look at u for a min face to face.
all i do is to stare at u from far ..

is this all i can do ??
life just sucks to the core !!

enough about that,
hand in my english project today & my teacher was dam please with it
cus its my hard work !! =x

till next time again ya ?
nites ppl !!

2009-02-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

got home 40mins ago.
went out to get my hair done for prom night this firday.
8hrs of reborn-ding & a hair cut after that.

done my english project which is due date tml.
so i guess, there only one thing left for me to do which is to
hit the sack at 10pm(:

nites.

2009-02-06T16:11:00.002+08:00

i'm so complicated right now !!
i dunnoe wads happening to me but something just hurt so much
deep inside _!_

i hate this kind of feeling !!
i guess i'm just really down .
fuck life & i wanna be alone

2009-02-05T18:29:00.002+08:00

just got home like 15mins ago & i'm here !!
gona blog first cus i bet i'll be very busy later doing my
SPECIAL PROJECT for english which i have to hand in tml _!_

teacher gona let me catch up with my grades !! urgh ..
aint she sweet ? lols, she not cus its a stack of project for me to do alone !
i hope i can finish this yeah.

gona start doing it right after my bath which is right now !
Ha. bye guys

2009-02-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

just got home 2hrs ago from shopping (:
Ha. bought my stuffs for prom night but except the suit
which i really dun wan but bo bian have to wear it _!_

anyways, home alone for a month or more i guess?
but i'll have to do my part yeah !!
nth much really happen today beside from shopping.

so i guess i'm hitting the sacks after this even though i'm not
kinda tired. I'll just have to close my eyes & fall to slp .
nites ppl.

2009-01-31T20:02:00.008+08:00

1 week back in sg was really great but time really do fly fast !!
urgh _!_
guys, i'm missing u guys again !! cant wait to be back for holiday (:
catch up another time yeah !!

some pics during de week

2009-01-17T14:25:00.005+08:00

Its exactly 1 week since i've blog =/
sry ppl, i've been really busy this past few days !!
3rd quarter exams will end on Monday yea :D
Where working on de waltz dance for prom night
on Feb !! I'll hope we'll get to prefect the dance =x

Anyways,
Happy 17th Birthday Wowie !!

some pics took during sch days

2009-01-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

Two Thumbs Up :D

Went out in the afternoon to catch that movie.
show starts off at 7.20pm & i bought the tickets at 6.30pm.
while waiting for the movie, i went Starbucks to slack as usual.

The movie was awesome !!
It made me laughed most of the time.
Its a must watch movie & i'm advising everyone to catch it (x

Off to play maple awhile yea (:
nights ppl !!

2009-01-08T22:52:00.002+08:00

sch was pretty boring today but okay i guess.
cus morning to lunch time, lesson were free time !!
due to de teachers absentee. LOL

nth much happen today & no homeworks !!
ahhas(:
plus de rainy weather is makin me so shag & slpy de whole day !
i'm off to bed now, nites readers <3

2009-01-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

Gah !

my first day of sch after more den 5months of skipping sch =x

i guess, i can say that i'm back to sch once again ! ahhas.

gona bear dis few months left & hope to graduate from it !!

once that, i'm comeing back to SG yea !!

i'll end it here cus i'm off to do some homeworks. lols

i cant believe i'm doing it once again, since sec1 was de last time for me

doing homeworks.

2009-01-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

went out to catch a local movie during the lunch time.
though it was a part two movie but i kinda like cus its
comedy !! after the show, went starbucks to slack
with my cigarettes & coffee just looking around at everyone was there =x

bought a new pair of spectacles just now too even though
i just got my new contact lens, lols.
did alot of thinking too. if i could chiong this 4months or less,
i could possibly finish school & get back to sg.

but i really dunnoe wad to do?!? life just sucks hard !!
if i'm going back to school, i have to fix myself first with an HAIRCUT !!
ROAR !! i dun wan to cut it but i have no choice if i wanna finish sch quick and get back right?

geez !!
i really dunnoe wad to do anymore.

2009-01-01T21:31:00.005+08:00

ROAR !!
its 2009 already & it has not yet sink in me.
but anyways, i guess this will be the first post of the month or
should we say, the first post of the year(:

last night count down was pretty much the same. lols
but it was the first time having the whole family together
with my relatives too :O

plus gifts were receive even though Christmas was over xp
ahhas.

Tags are replied here :

Terry: What up!! hehex Happy new year =))
♥J: i'm cool. how about you ? anything new lately ?? Happy New Year too(:

yuanshan: HappyNewYear too !!!!
♥J: thx, u takecare yea!

♥AHGAL .MEL: Happy New Year ! ;D
♥J: Happy New Year to you too :O

Minn': HappyNewYear to you too !
♥J: xiexie rude girl xP miss u wor !!

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♥J: well, these are the codes. [u] write the name here [/u]

Kimberly ❤: ASS ! RELINK ! hehe , thnks (: & HAPPY NEW YEARRRR !! xoxo <3
♥J: lols, its done u dumby xP ! Happy New Year too <3

melvin: yoyo , happy new year JAY
♥J: thx melvin !! Happy New Year too(:

jolene: korr ! HAPPY NEW YEAR TOO(: <3
♥J: thx mei !! takecare always & misses yea <3

Ther: Happy new year daddy!
♥J: Happy New Year too nuer :O

2008-12-31T10:18:00.002+08:00

didn't blog for a few days cus i was really busy or should
i just say simply being lazy =x
Ha.

anyways, its December 31 2008 !!
afew hrs left before we say goodbye to 2008 &
welcome 2009 :D

i hope de coming new year would be a good one for me.
as well, as to everyone yea xD
alrights, shall be ending it here !!

more updates to come on 2009 ppl (:
ahhas.

Happy New Year Guys !!

2008-12-26T18:31:00.004+08:00

i'm in a great mood right now !! AHAHAS.
went shopping with my cousin & aunt de whole day !!
first time in my whole life, i went shopping
from 10am - 6.33pm :D
bought tons of colthes for myself ! which i can say, from head to toe.
anyways, i just wanna THANK my aunt cus she was de one payin
for everything !!

tags are replied here :
THUNDER - JAY: CB ! YOUR HAIR !%#y^$ HAPPY XMAS BRO ! WISH YOU WILL HERE SIA !
♥J-thunder : lols. my hair wad neh?? dun suit? i wish, i'm there too !! yr Christmas eve with de guys looks fun !!

Janez: MERRY x'mas too!! ;] ok, will help you wish my brother too!
♥J-Janez : thanks(: alright sure.

♥jinqx3-♥J: punkstar ! LOLspam with pic Merry christmas
♥J-♥jinqx3 : lols. do i really look like one o.0? Merry Christmas too(:

♥AHGAL .MEL: Merry Christmas ! ;D
♥J-♥AHGAL.MEL : Thanks(: Merry Christmas too !

robin: merry christmas too bro!! n since when u wanna be a 1 eye monster lol
♥J-Robin : thanks bro ! lols. dats a first, for someone to call me dat =X

jolene: korr(: ahas TAGGED(;
♥J-Jolene : thx mei(: Merry Christmas yah!

Tricia: Jayyy ! you look so handsome with this hairstyle . I love your hair !!!!!!!!!!! Thunder hair i see till very sian already . lols
♥J-Tricia : woots :D thanks wor !! ahhas, see thunder hair till sianz sia xD

sally: relink thks . take cares
♥J-Sally : done! i will (: u too yah !

2008-12-25T05:16:00.002+08:00

i guess, i'll be pretty busy later & worn out at nite to blog.
so, i'm doing it right nw(:
just wanna wish everyone out there a
Merry Christmas & a Happy holidays:D
gah, i miss everyone back there !!!
& one more thing, 25th december happens to be
my mom's birthday. so yea, Happy Birthday !!

2008-12-24T13:46:00.073+08:00

23.12.08

finally, i'm home after a very long day!
jus wanna wish my cousin a Happy 18th Birthday (:
i hope u u enjoyed yrself to de core cus dis only happens
once in a life time!!

anyways, i've fun through de whole day & even at de
hotel. words arent enough to say, how much fun we
had but i'm gona let de picture tell de story !!
pics are not in order though =x

2008-12-19T23:52:00.003+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday

Esther !!

Happy Birthday esther (:

finally turn 16 le wor. hope u had a great day yah !

missed u guys lots !

2008-12-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

ah!
tiring day today ! went to sch to celebrate Christmas party.
it was fun to see everyone again after so long. chit chats & snacks were nvr ending.
did alot of catching up to do.

After the celebration,
we had a few mins of our own to celebrate our teacher's bday which is tml !
every guy in de class, dance with her as if she was a princess lol.
but anways, it was fun though(: after blowing of her cake, she gave us souvenir
so dat we could always rmb her ? ahhas.
but de last thing was, she made a heart warming announcement !!
she wants us to graduate together without leaving anyone behind.
at dis point, afew ppl drop tears. & i realised time is really flying & i'm being left behind.

Ha.

wont be writin anything abt my down side at dis post

cus it will destroy it =x

headed down town with a couple of frens.

we waited for de girls while dey get their stuffs. once done, we went

to have a game of pool !! urgh, i missed pool so much xD

had hot choco drinks after de game cus we were really freezing inside.

Bowling was next cus it was jus across us & we could nt resist it any longer.

cant believe i sucked at it so much from de last time but at least i still had one strike xP

we wanted to ice-skate though but we were runnig out of CASH !! & it was gettin late too.

wtf, we were spending big amounts. so we decided to do it next time.

went to grab those foods like u can eat it while walking ? lol.

& im home bloggin abt it right nw(:

seriously, i hate myself today for one point.

today was a great day but no pics !!

my phone died on me cus i forgot to charge it.

& i didt thought of bringing the

digi cam !!

urgh, shit this _!_

2008-12-16T06:19:00.002+08:00

weekends were boring as usual !! so didn't decided to blog for de past
few weeks.

well its Tuesday & its early in de morning and i'm up ??
what the hell !! seriously, i'm timing for everything is just so wrong !!
but anyways, i cant help it. lols

beside rotting my ass at home for de past three days.
i've got my new contact lens & went to get my hair done (:
i guess, i'll be going to sch on thrusday due to a christmas party ??
ahhas.

gah, i'm ending it here.
till next time yah !

2008-12-12T01:28:00.007+08:00

kimberlyangweizhu !!

i hate u so much for making me drop tears after reading yr post.

i feel so pathetic right now

but seriously, im really touched (:

Thank You wor !!

i hope, u'll be able to solve dat problems of yrs.

im always here to give u advise

& moral support =X

thankyou once again, for making me smile

cus its been a long time since i do.

with much love,

2008-12-11T07:34:00.009+08:00

hate it when someone calls me using my surname cus i just dun like it _!_
but anways, kim called me dat tons of time last nite & i was emotionally
force to let her so dat she could forget abt her worries .

she was troubling abt her work & her guy's problems.
well, i could nt give any points or tips abt her prob wif her guy cus
im nt him & i obviously dunnoe wad he thinks right ??
anways, i told her to hab a talk with him so dat dey could slove things out.

as for her work,
its abt money problem. & i cant believe she was short/over of 3k, WTF !!
& she said, she missed one fckin step & de prob came out. but i told her
to look at de bright side cus her parents gt her back if anything happens
as in, dey are willing to pay de 3k thing !!

& she still feel uneasy cus even though it will be solve cus 3k is a BIG amount.
all she can do is just be thankful to her parents right cus dey were nt angry.
like i told her,
problems can never be stop but we can always prevent it by happening again!

in the end,
she was feeling better & decided to go ahead with bed cus she was kinda tired
from dropping alittle tears from her eyes. - dats why she said, ahhas

girl, u seriously owe me one

cus dis long post is all abt u !!!

must pay me back u know ?!?
a tiny tag like that wont do good xP

dam, i'm such a great friend (:

2008-12-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

been watchin Japanese drama lately.

its called, Sapuri !!

dam nice, show lor. i give two thumbs up (:

i find,

Kamenashi Kazuya & Shida Mirai great actor/actress.

well, looking for new movies/drama related to them

or other nice ones.

anyone knows a good

taiwan/japan or other good dramas/movies

just intro me them yah !!

u'll be doing a great deed if u did dat =x

ahhas.

2008-12-09T17:39:00.003+08:00

finally done with painting (:
ahhas.
looks like i miss count de day of finishing it.
it was suppose to be ytd but i end up finish today =x

but anways, im glad its done cus its really tiring.
gona take a break for now ..

2008-12-09T02:35:00.002+08:00

seriously, i've been thinking too much lately

abt my life?

been throwing my life away ever since

the being of dis year.

like wad?? well, slacking my ass off till late mornings.

drinking & smoking hoping to die soon

but it just wont do!

& i guess u left me for most of dis reasons or

should a say, every single one of it & theres more too.

do anyone knows de difference between a

adult & a child??

let me tell u,

a child pushes their feelings to someone dey like

while de adults make dat someone confess to u.

& one more thing.

when a child leaves, dey make alot of promises.

as for de adults, dey just pray for de others welfare.

i guess moving on is de hardest thing to do

but i just hab to try.

i really want u so bad but i think i hab to let u go.

cus wad de point of being tgt where u cant be proud of me & i

have nth to be proud with.

i have to make smth out of my life with

before i could come back.

2008-12-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

urgh !! dam tired nia.
been painting de hse dis past few days & its
killing me _!_ but in de other hand im kinda enjoyin it too.
lols.

hope too finish it tml or by monday yah.
gona worn myself out from watchin movies !!!
nites peeps (:

2008-12-05T16:06:00.003+08:00

when i met you, u didt catch my attention
u were just someone i knew.but now i care for u more den u know.
and i love u more den i could show...

GOODBYE, were better off dis way.

i'm alive but i'm losing all my drive
cause everything we been through
seemed to be a lie, to hate u or hate myself for letting it
pass by.

GOODBYE, were better off dis way
GOODBYE, were better off dis way

everything isn't only. words dat u nvr told me
its time to say goodbye

GOODBYE ...

when i think of those happy moments
we've shared together, i cried so much dat
i want to stay in my bed for de rest of my day. it feels like dying every second
i remember yr name. its hard to forget someone u almost give yr life too.

deceiving me is de only thing i can do.
i hope dat even if we parted our ways.
our sweet memories will nvr fade.
now i leave with sorrows and tears in myheart.

farewell to you,
who covered me from de cozy rays of sun and
from de tricky drops of de rain.

i love you and Goodbye.

2008-12-04T22:45:00.005+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday

Tianyi !!

Happy Birthday yah (:

dun think so long, nvr meet or

chat with u will forget about yr birthday.

still rmb those primary sch

moments we had, ahhas !!

2008-12-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED.
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,
I'M SO DAM BORED, I'M SO DAM BORED,

2008-12-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

well nth much happen today cus i woke up in
de late afternoon.

tv,lappy,food & bath was today's event, LOL
so basically, im dam bored !

sex is evil, evil is sin, but sin is forgiven, so lets begin

&
im at your will..just pull my string and lets begin the thrill

2008-12-02T20:05:00.005+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday

Jonathan !!

happy brithday bro (:

sry, i wont be able to pei ni celebrate yah.

but have fun during this day.

miss u guys sia !!

takecare bro

2008-12-02T18:02:00.002+08:00

well, i've locked myself in the world of stories the
whole afternoon. fantasy was running through
my head.

maybe jus to escape reality for a few hrs.
today is de first time, my mom said this right in my face.
she said, i am a burden to her life. WTF !!

den u should have nvr given birth to me in de first place.
dunworry mom, im waiting for my time to leave this world.

but if u jus could nt wait, tell me & i'll nvr

appear in yr sight again !!

when u loved the one who was killing u,

it left u no options. how could run,

how could u fight, when doing so would hurt dat beloved one?

if yr life was all u had to give, how could u nt give it?

if it was someone u truly loved?

2008-12-01T21:06:00.002+08:00

woke up around 7 in de morning due to a serious hangover.
had breakfast & took a rest before lending a hand to my aunt to make some
birthday invitation cards.
took a nap after dat.

lunch time,
& it was another drinkin session with my
uncle, aunt & cousin.

was kinda drunk after dat but i still had my lunch.
back to slp agin. gt up around 8 plus & took my bath.

nw im here bloggin hw im rotting my life away =x

gona hab my dinner soon & off with movies/drama as usual

how do i lessen de pain

2008-11-29T22:38:00.003+08:00

just got home a few mins ago.

went out to watch de movie, Twilight (:

dam de place was crowed.

i guess its because its weekend ??

so went to another cinema which is near by.

was lucky to get a good sit even though it was a few

mins before de show start !!

bought a white tee after de show

& headed back home.

nites(:

dead is peace while life is painful

2008-11-29T14:16:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday

Agnes Tan Gui Qing xp

2008-11-29T03:31:00.003+08:00

for a moment there, when i recall everything
tears still do shed in my eyes &
it still hurt so bad
i can feel de wounds are still so fresh .

shouldijustmoveon ??

btw, i've changed my msn add already

so do add my new account yah !!

if yr wondering

wad is it,

just come & ask me cus i dont bite (:

im off to slp, screw dis piece of shit ..

2008-11-28T22:53:00.003+08:00

back to continue my movies (:

really nth much to blog about today though.

thunder, looks like yr doing good le.

seems like things would get back de way it is.

so dun worry too much

life is really painful _!_

2008-11-28T18:25:00.006+08:00

gona take a few mins break

cus my eyes hurt from staring de stupid screen for ages !!

been watchin movies the whole afternoon.

well anyways, i'm off to hab my dinner cus kinda hungry though.

continue it later (:

2008-11-27T18:48:00.001+08:00

weizhu, my player is back & running yah (:
but if it was not, then i'll have to
sue you for listening too much & without leaving a tag !! =x

enjoy yr dinner at hub wor !

2008-11-27T17:23:00.003+08:00

one short post before i take my bath =x
actually, dis post will be about you,

ANG WEI ZHU !!!!!!!!!

looks like u've been listening to my songs on my blog
for over a month le
but u nvr tag me. urgh _!_

will it kill u jus to leave one tag?
ahhas..
nvm la, u can keep it all to yrself !!! =p

2008-11-26T15:53:00.003+08:00

feelings dat remain since u've left

wont it be great if i just had that remote from the movie, Click ..

would things be better & different if i could just press rewind

& rewrite every line

to the story of me and you once had.

i wanted you but its not meant to be.

& u said u'll let fate decide on bringin us back together again.

i've tired to get you out of my mind

but i just could not put you in the past.

i'm lost & confused but i hope to hear from you soon

cus im still not over you.

girl it aint easy

when i hear our song, i wish i could turn back the hands of time

to where you & me first met.

cus i wanna stop dat perfect atmosphere dat brough me to life.

2008-11-26T15:45:00.001+08:00

Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

2008-11-25T17:46:00.002+08:00

When i'm with you

Take my hand

I'd do anything

just afew songs that defines my life.

2008-11-24T23:36:00.005+08:00

life is a pain

aunt brought me & my cousin out

to get our Christmas clothings.

its great that i have a few new clothes but im really not

in the mood too just go through this celebration.

i just dont have that christmas spirt that's everyone is having

which i see most in the people.

all i could say is that,

Christmas wont be the same without you !

with all this problems & emotions

i'm facing right now, its enough for me to break down.

& yet why does my small sis have to be

another pain in my life ??

dam, she is 13years old already

but yet, she still acts like a little kid bugging me

all day & all the time !!

why don't you just grow up & behave & think maturely ?

2008-11-24T01:35:00.002+08:00

things aren't the way it used to be

too much happiness flows

into tears of fears that aren't able to control.

happiness just sucks big time !!

everyone I've loved had left me

so i guess there is no reason to continue holding on to something we

both aren't sure off & yr

right about that.

life does not go the way we want it to be.

its always against us.

2008-11-23T21:00:00.004+08:00

messed up

the reason why i love you

`The smell of your hair

`The taste of your kiss
`The sound of your voice

`The touch of your hand

& more ..

these are some simple things

that i will always miss about you.

you are the best gift that god gave me

but too bad it only lasted for a short while.

there wont be true love without pain.

but u took it all away from me.

to the world u might be one person,

but to me, you are the world.

wad in the world am i sayin ?!?

but i guess dats hw i feel.

URGH,_!_THIS EMOTIONS !!

2008-11-23T00:17:00.003+08:00

dreams are shattered

went out in de afternoon to get

some time alone & just forget everything abt life

but looks like i cant even though i've

spend every penny in my wallet buying new

shirts, jeans & belts ..
i've really gt alot of things in my mind but when it comes

to bloggin it all out here ?

i just go blank .....

dam it, im jus cropped !!

wads de use of me changing & im used to it

when someday u'll jus leave me here in de rain.

every since you left,

im drowning from my tears.
maybe its right, its better to leave some

words unsaid.

for a moment, everything was prefect but in a sec,

the whole worlds flips on me & everything was hell ...

2008-11-22T12:38:00.002+08:00

i cant live, if leaving is without u

sorry, for breaking all the promises dat i wasn't around to keep
sorry, this time is de last time

i will ever beg you to stay

but yr already on yr way.

filled with sorrow, filled with pain

no one but i am to blame for leaving yr heart in the rain.

2008-11-21T01:00:00.004+08:00

Goodbyes are for break ups.

yr words felt like a knife & all i could do

was say goodbye? why didt i say anything else to make you stay.

maybe im jus afraid to hurt u once again.

tear drops rolled down my cheeks but wad can i do?

its a shame but looks like i have to start hating myself.

god this is killing me !!

till we meet again ?

i really dunnoe, im in my lost ! looks like i wont be slpin

good this few days.

if i ask u to stay, will you?

will you?

will you jus hold on to something yr nt sure ??

i wanna hear those unsaid words u left me hanging.

makes me wish dat i was nvr brought into this place !!

there goes my life, it might has well been

shattered !!

since, u've left ..

its time to think again wad made me feel so alive

for oh so long.

with yr love im jus half or my words aren't deceiving

maybe its jus me

why do i hab to break my fcuking heart ?!?

im so alone once again.

hw come everyone is askin me this & that ?

& will do this & will u stop that ?

WTF !!!

why wont u ppl jus leave me alone

im tired of this sickening life !!

shit this world.

would u just take me away ?

LEAVE ME ALONE

2008-11-20T17:57:00.003+08:00

You're my key to survival.

dam bored & shag at home.

been chatting with thunder all de way while listening to songs

or either watching movies.

brother was feeling down due to some strange feeling

his having.

well, cheered him up & we talked abt our memorable

days we had together with the group.

really can say, thunder is one of my best brothers sia !

ahhas. oi bitch, i guess when u read this

yr balls will be touched yah ? (:

ohh btw, THANK YOU MOM !!

for my Louis Vultton Wallet :D

so love it.

2008-11-19T23:22:00.002+08:00

failure is when you stop trying

Finally got my Breaking Dawn storybook :D

its a first time for me reading & i hope

it will turn out good yah.

instead of going to sch today for my exams, went out with

cousin & her friends.

Met them at max's restaurant & we went to

pizza hut for dinner.

Vita(cousin's friend)was full of craps & he nvr fail to make us laugh.

Went timezone to play awhile before going to

Starbucks for my coffee.

Next was window shopping before getting home.

nites ppl, im off to watch my movies (:

2008-11-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

whispers are priceless

got home 40mins ago.

was shock to see min online cus she is at Vietnam.

but currently she was with jolene at a cafe updating & making blog.

speaking of de devil,

thunder came online when min asked me if he was online.

well, four of us chatted for a couple of mins

before de girls headed back to de hotel.

didn't do anything happening today.

beside goin to church in de afternoon.

chilled at Starbucks after dat cus there are no good movies to watch

besides, Quantum Of Solace.

bought a necklace for myself & home after that.

2008-11-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

feeling sick

just gt home nt long ago. was bored de whole day
cus i was home alone while my mom took both of my sis to get thier hair done.
so i decided to go out & catch de movie
Quantum Of Solace
nice show, worth watchin if u ask me (:
at de being of de movie, my head was killing me & i guess
im falling sick o.0
headed home after the movie.

2008-11-13T18:25:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday

Brother Lionel (:

Happy Birthday Brother !!

hope u enjoy dis day & yr chalet till friday yah(:

yongjin told me dat he would bring his mc16

go yr chalet sia. i told him nt to

make my toes laugh sia. i would rather wan to see him holding

a fire hose instead xD